Suki na Mono wa Suki Dakara Shouganai

Way to start the term.

2010-01-06T05:11:56Z

I can't get any work done. I feel kind of... I don't know... empty?

I managed to arrange my laptops so that they're both easily accessible from the futon (thanks to the wireless keyboard/mice i bought).

I think I have grown into the habit of sleeping on sofas/futons. o_o... My bed's just so high up~ and I did just spend the last 3 weeks sleeping on a couch. Yes, I am bitter about the fact that my parents gave my room to my brother without telling me.

Ughhh...

I found a new partner to work with? We'll see how it goes... I'm not really enthusiastic about term... about classes... I feel kind of dead. Ugh.

I spent the afternoon shopping around with Jennifer. That was mildly entertaining. I also finally filled the two pictures frames I had in my dorm with actual photos. Whoa!

I've been listening to the Home Alone theme (Somewhere In My Memory) a lot lately. I get kind of teary-eyed every time though. TT_TT I'd so much rather be hanging out with my cousin... and with my friends, of course~ Whoever knew the title of the song could be so fitting. <3

Talk about brief moments of freedom and disappearing in a flash!

My jaw hurts. I've been having a pretty horrible headache... since last Wednesday. I took Tylenol once... it also must've helped that I was distracted from thinking too much about my headache last week.

I really need to get to work. I'm going to be so behind. At this rate, I probably won't be able to see X Japan this weekend. T_T

I should be posting about winter break sometime~ I recorded most of everything down on post its~ so... yeah. It's another one of those sappy entries that I may or may not actually post.

Since when did it become so trendy for people to wear college sweaters anyways?

Precious moments~

One day I want to see a white Christmas.

Well now...

2010-01-04T23:58:18Z

I woke up one morning about a week and a half ago to find that I couldn't really open my mouth without feeling some incredibly sharp pain, but I shrugged it off, because I felt my jaw "pop" like it did a few times before... It "popped" back later that day, but I woke up the next morning with the same pain, and it's been like this since then. I can't really open my mouth very wide, so I haven't been able to eat a lot of the foods I wanted to eat (and here I wanted to go on a kogi run with some friends/my cousin T_T).

I've also had these really nasty headaches on and off, but, apparently, they're related to my jaw pain. Crap!

I probably do clench my teeth when I sleep. I probably do it more often when I'm overly stressed out (meh, 'cause it feels sore afterwards), and I definitely was last term (when am I not during the term? x_x).

Man. This sucks.

That and... well? I'm not sure just how much I regret doing what I did during winter break. I really really really really needed a break. I tried working. Then my virtual machine kind of lagged until it crashed, and now it's not even booting. Oh my goodness. I had been working on my work laptop..., but then my cousin came... He flew out from Houston. He's one of my favorite people to hang out with. Did I really want to work on stuff that I had been stressing out over all term... instead of hanging out, going to Disneyland, and doing all that jazz? Not really?

Seriously, people must think I love working... And sure, I have a tendency to take it to an extreme. I guess that makes me quite obsessive about things? But gosh, give me a break, and it's not like I want to take it all to another extreme.

Anyways, that's my failed attempt at justifying my decisions. I should not have expected or said that I'd be able to get things done over break. I did try. I wrote about half of my program before Aldec crashed... and then Win XP crashed, then OS X crashed...

I really need to reformat. At least I can access the files on my virtual HDD, even though I can't boot XP.

Since I don't have any homework due in the immediate future, I'll be trying to get a lot of "work" work done these next couple of days. I probably will have screwed myself over by doing that.

Oh, and well, I do blame myself. I'm an idiot. I should've finished stuff. I shouldn't have felt bad about having no one to hang out with. I always get depressed about that. Really. Every freaking break since sometime middle of high school. All my college friends leave. None of my high school friends are free ('cause they've made other plans...)...... Of course, when they do have time, my cousin's here. I don't know. I feel guilty.

I ranted to Jackie about this at the start of break. I spent a good several hours crying about it.

I spent a good several hours crying about that asshole at Frys. Condescending people suck.

Admittedly, the start of winter break was remarkably shitty. I had work to look forward to. That was it.

So, I couldn't be more grateful when my cousin came over and practically babysat me during the second half. It was so much fun! I haven't had that much fun in such a long time. Disneyland and funky conversations included. :D

I don't know why I do almost nothing else but smile whenever he's here.

So really... I don't regret forsaking work.

I don't think I've grown up very much.

Yes, it's my fault. I'm sorry I didn't get done what I said I'd finish.

I'll just have to find a different person to work with.

I hope this term won't be as hectic, though I think it'll be more so...

Maybe I can concentrate on 119...

I miss my cousin. Ahh. T_T;; I wish he'd move to California. Then we could hang out more. T_T I'm totally uncool with meeting every 5 or so years. >_<

I loved the last 10 days of winter break. Such a wonderful break from all that work~ And it's gosh darn hard to get work entirely out of my head. It usually just kind of sits there, nagging me in some corner.

And if my cousin does read this (which I doubt), we really did make a water balloon. x3

What a topsy-turvy winter break this has been.

Anyways, it's back to reflecting... back to cuddling up in a little corner of the futon for a couple more minutes. Back to crying about random shit and feeling depressed that my favorite older brother ish figure has gone back home. T_T

So much for keeping WP updated.

CityWalk with the gang from school was also pretty great.

Jeez. I feel incredibly old now. o_o

2009-12-21T10:35:39Z

My Boss My Hero ran in 2006.

And Sailor Moon's 20th anniversary is coming up. D:

Things to look forward to in 2010:

Nodame movies :D
Gundam 00 movies :DD
Geass something or anothers... (but I guess it won't be all that exciting without Lelouch... Suzaku was just... there...)

FFXIII!

So I picked out a Wordpress theme. There's a lot that I would like to do to customize/change it. >_< I wish I could combine 4 themes that I liked. Too bad they're all not quite to my taste. ._. I went through 73 pages! When I get around to it, I'll probably recode everything.

I'm still pretty happy about the way my Ya-Ya-yah theme turned out since it seems that sidebars these days really are lacking something. -_-

And what the beep is up with Hankyung?! o_o

lol... so I was archiving some old entries, and I realized that GG classes taught me just how umm... therapeutic swearing can be. ahahah

I need to do a lot of things over break.

2009-12-21T06:13:57Z

No that I've submitted my cover letter, I have to finish my two major winter break projects, but I feel so gosh darn tired of working and otherwise feeling bored. Argh.

I still need to buy Christmas presents. There's nothing to really do at home. The food's very meh-able. I've been sleeping on a cough all week. My room has been given to my brother. College friends are gone. High school friends are doing their own things...

I did discover that exporting LJ entries to Wordpress is much easier now than it was some 3 years ago, when I last thought about trying...

It kind of sucks. My domain's been pretty dead... and I've basically been giving out web hosting space that I pay for... to random high school organizations/clubs I used to participate in. -__-

Give me 8 hours, and I'll see if I can put together a mini site. xD

I think I'll just stick with a content management system, because I really don't have the time to code anything on my own...

Wordpress blogging? Yes? No?

I think it'd be more formal to start a blog on my site again. I still have my really old blog somewhere... Yes indeed, somewhere. Unfortunately, I lost all of the blog entries I chose to write on the old Furuba Forums. 8th grade~ Graduation~ Disneyland... *shrug*

Meh. I like Livejournal communities. Maybe I can find some daily import tool or write some kind of custom script if it's not supported (though I'm sure one already exists somewhere).

Yessirree.

+ Cousin called today. I can't wait until Christmas Eve. n_n
+ Maybe if I get started on this Wordpress idea, I'll come up with some more... grammatically correct entries. LOL.

OH OH OH

2009-12-20T19:51:22Z

And obligatory happy birthday post to my favorite JE boi. xD

山下翔央〜〜
誕生日おめでとう〜〜

Even though I will likely never have the chance to meet you IRL. >_<

</fangirling>

Hmm...

2009-12-20T19:44:36Z

I just e-mailed my cover letter. I'm sooooo excited. *o* Trip to Japan~ Internship~ lalalaaaa~

Though I kind of feel like going to the Caltech career fair just for the heck of it. After all, you've gotta love swag. xD... And Microsoft detergent (or whatever they're giving away this year)! Of course, that's only if I have time. -_-

A long time ago (2-3 years ago?), when I first came up with the list of things I wanted to do before I die (more like, name all the cliche things people do in dramas and then a few actually important things x3)... I wonder if I included setting off fireworks/lighting sparklers somewhere by the beach with 私の恋人. xD Don't ask why I thought of it now. .__.

kkkaaasdfl;j

ahahaahaha....

Oi o__o

2009-12-20T08:29:08Z

Today, I went to my dad's company Christmas party. On a yacht. o_o

I got 2 things out of going.

1) More practice casually talking to strangers in a somewhat casual/somewhat business-like environment -- I'm sure lots of other similar opportunities will arise in the future

2) There was a pretty gosh darn good looking waiter there. Thing is... he wasn't Asian. o__o I think he definitely "noticed" me... Noticed as in... looked at me specifically... a couple of times. No... not what you're thinking. -__- But I mean~ when you're with a bunch of 40-60-year-old men and women.. "dancing" to modern music... uhh... yes... conversation!

Back to the story~

I moved to the lounge because it was too noisy on deck, and I got bored... so I started working on the serial multiplier... He came up to me and asked what I was doing. Hmmm... So then we had a really short conversation~ His name's Cody. He seems really nice. His dad works for IBM... He was pursuing a degree in bioengineering (?) at Case Western (?), but now he's trying to become a... "rock star"? o_O

Anyways, the guy was nice. He seemed smart... although I'm not one to pursue something of that nature with virtually no financial security...

And he's pretty good looking.

That is all.

I need to get back to work.

2009-12-19T03:04:58Z

But I just thought I'd mention that web browsers have come a long way in their support for transparency. :o Man. If transparent PNGs had been better supported way back in the day, I probably would still be designing layouts over break. I really need to revamp my site. >_< *stares at the Coming 2007 sign*

.___.;;;

+ Letter to NTT *must do today or tomorrow*
+ n-bit serial multiplier in VHDL *trying to finish tonight*
+ update resume (again?)
+ reply to science olympiad volunteer e-mail
+ finish the GUI *utmost priority*

I've got one of my sudden urges to draw/design something again... except nothing's been all too fruitful lately. More like, I haven't done anything interesting since beginning of junior year. Grr!

Busy busy busy.

Either that or I sleep... and feel lonely. And maybe dream about pretty men somewhere in between? Aha.

Eye candy is <3

Cousin is coming to visit soon. I'm going to Japannnn. wooot.

I haven't felt this lively while posting a Livejournal entry in such a long time.

you know...

2009-12-19T00:20:51Z

shinee's pretty good. o_o i wonder why i didn't pay attention to them sooner. D:

Downloading. Installing. Downloading. Installing.

2009-12-18T02:33:49Z

That's what my day consisted of. >_<

I finally got VPN working~ Thanks to FAQs and random other things... 'cause for some reason I had to actually import the certificate.

Uh-huh.

And I'm now 42% of the way through downloading Visual Studio Pro 2008. ~_~ I already have an evaluation copy. Must I download another 1.5 GBs for a license key? x_x

Yes and reading about MFC.

I think I'm finally going to get a haircut this weekend. Jennifer's been nagging. x3

Oh and my mom really likes to carelessly spend money. But since when was that new?

Well, she did take it to a whole new extreme by buying an iPhone rip off. Gah.

Edit: LOLOL

"We're afraid of commitment, too. You may think we spend our time scheming ways to trap you into marriage, but many of us are quite happy being independent and autonomous. Besides, we're not in any rush to quit lusting after young Calvin Klein models."

"We need you to be reachable at all times, but we don't always pick up our phones when you call. We realize this seems like a double standard; if you'd like to discuss it further, just leave a message."

I like these two.

Today... I...

2009-12-17T06:17:21Z

Reread parts of Kare Kano. My gosh, the story was epic.

Bokura wa Itsumo was interesting, but since I was in the mood for more 僕ら... uhh... yes... stories with similar titles... >_>; I wound up reading what was scanlated of Bokura ga Ita. It's kind of like a twisted blend of Nana and Kare Kano. It's.. really weird. It makes you mad. I feel like slapping the protagonist. But it's addicting... and unfinished. Great?

Good news? I found out my host company. Anyone familiar with Japanese telecommunications *coughcough* cell phones must've heard of NTT DoCoMo, no? Or at least seen it as a sponsor in some drama~

Well, I'll be working with a research team for NTT. Yeah, not DoCoMo, per say, but hey, it's the largest telecommunications company in Asia. :D

And the marathoning begins?

2009-12-16T21:30:40Z

I really need to get back into work mode. >_< Crap.

- メイちゃんの執事 (*o*)
-僕らはいつも
-僕らがいた

How depressing...

2009-12-15T22:39:18Z

Winter break just started, but when I finally have time to hang out with people, everyone leaves. T_T

That said, I had a lot of fun this weekend. x3 After only managing to finish half of my last 119 set, that is. ._. Oh yes, and bombing the heck out of physics.

- Went to Japon Bistro for dinner on Saturday. The waitress was really rude. -.-;;; She shoved a whiteboard in our faces.

Sunday, Doris, Jennifer, Ka, and I hit up City Walk and Kodak Theatre. Seriously touristy, but it was fun nevertheless. I'll post pics sometime~ I ran around in the water fountain thing, and when I went to dry myself off in the restroom, some woman asked me if I "wet [myself]"... uhhh...

Then we went back and watched Nightmare Before Christmas/slept. Yep. I was wondering why I didn't see Ahn Hyun Soo in the speedskating competition I was watching. D: Turns out he's been out of commission due to a knee injury and he won't be participating in the Vancouver Olympics. Boo, S. Korea! He should be able to participate anyways. ;_;

I got a neat Audrey Hepburn photobook for my birthday~ and a [must look up name] hair accessory from Jennifer. n_n

And I hung out with Evan yesterday. <3

ILUGUYS.

Now for Mei-chan no Shitsuji and work.

Done with finals

2009-12-12T00:56:26Z

Failed at least one. Har har har. Have one more 119 set that I haven't started. ~_~ Tomorrow's Evan's birthday. Yayyy ;3

And sometime between last Sunday and today, I turned 1 year older. Old old old. T_T

I am 16, going on 17~ la la laaa. TT_TT I wish.

New Geass?! :o

2009-12-07T03:42:06Z

EOM.

Hellish?

2009-12-06T14:53:50Z

This week's been unusually hectic. I stayed up/slept in Moore Sunday night/Monday morning until afternoon to work on serial divider. It finally worked. My gosh. I hate myself for being such an idiot. ;_;

Then I spent Monday evening crashing/trying to finish my Japanese essay. This more or less continued until Wednesday at midnight... Then I had ACM. And on Wednesday night, I was scrambling to work on physics and get enough serial divider test vectors done, although the latter was kind of fruitless. -_- And I had to take an extension on math to finish the VHDL code. My test vectors were half-assed. T_T

And then we had formal dinner... I wore my qi pao, but apparently, I've gotten fatter and it doesn't fit me as well as it used to. T_T

Yes then an outing to who knows where that I really didn't want to go to... but went anyways. >_>; Bad sleep-deprived Angie.

I'd be much more enthused if our entire alley went. lol...

And I slept for pretty much the entire day yesterday.

New Kaichou wa Maid-sama and DNAngel. :D Now I'm just waiting on Skip Beat.

Hmm... I feel bad for bumming in my friend's room. ><

DBSK and SMAP. :3

Fits

2009-12-01T02:16:02Z

>_<

Coughing fits FTL. It's almost as if I'm suffocating. :x And when I have one, I can't stop for ages, even after chugging down a ton of water.

I slept 4 hours in Moore last night. Finally got serial divider to work. I was being a dumbass... I could've gotten it working last night. Rather, I had everything in place. I just... decided to change my design, and spent the rest of the night/day resolving fitting issues (more like I couldn't, but thank goodness the old design had been relatively well thought out so I was able to finish within an hour of reverting back).

I hate coughing.

Happy Belated Thanksgiving people :D

2009-11-29T02:24:50Z

And happy belated birthday Kat!

I hope everyone had a better Thanksgiving/Black Friday than I did. I hate being sick. >_< I've been coughing so much that I haven't been able to get any work done. As long as I'm awake, I'm practically always coughing, although I think I've gotten a bit better this afternoon. My stomach hurts from coughing too much.

I have so much work.

As for the shopping spree... well, going in a large group wasn't the best decision in the world. Things get really disorganized... and if not everyone is on the same page, it just doesn't really work. I really owe it to Nigel for driving us around too.

That aside, I bought some new outfits. I didn't get any discounts on those. I also got a new camera and (finally) a wireless keyboard/mouse, etc.

Feeling oh-so-shitty. ;_;

Wheeze. Cough. Cough.

2009-11-27T04:38:17Z

I went to see Tamerlano featuring Placido Domingo last night. I was tired, so I nodded off in the middle. The story was interesting. The Dorothy Chandler Pavillion was gorgeous. But! I'm feeling worse today. >_

Angie's To Do List

2009-11-23T01:25:20Z

Physics - physics quiz, physics homework
ACM - homework
Japanese - Interview, OC quiz prep, test

Next week:

119 - serial divider
Japanese Essay

And I never did fully recover.

2009-11-22T16:07:08Z

I've been coughing for several weeks, but man, I'm sick again.

Weekly issues?

2009-11-22T07:14:52Z

I have a fever.

I have a bruise on my finger. I managed to get it as I was rushing between 119 simulation in Moore and interview in the CSS building.

I'm overwhelmed with work.

The takeout lady made me walk out in the cold. The tuna was practically as thin as a sheet of paper.

My cough won't go away.

Did I mention I'm sick?

Things have been weird this week.

I'm most likely going to Japan next summer.

Troublesome.

2009-11-17T09:51:49Z

=\

I just woke up. x_x I slept at 3 PM. It's 2 AM? X_X Thank goodness I only have Japanese due tomorrow.

But I still haven't finished 119 :<

Borders, Moore, stuff happening. Umm... yeah... I'll leave it like that.

To the... 119-mobile? Ahaha.

Wow.

2009-11-16T00:09:42Z

I ate 4 donuts over the course of 6 hours.

Hmm...

2009-11-15T05:54:13Z

So, I worked on 119 today. I think I'm almost done/going to demo tomorrow.

Third Eye Blind performed. I stayed for a couple of minutes. I couldn't stand the bass. Then we went to Borders.

I had Lollicup beef noodle soup, but before I could finish it for dinner, fruit flies took over. ;_; Turns out there was this rotten orange fruit fly nest in our room. x_x

So I'm eating instant udon.

I had a bunch of donuts!

Some little kids outside our window noticed my roommate and started throwing sugar cubes at the window. x_x Weird man.